Will God Ever ForGive Me
We’ve all been overcome with guilt and grief. We all have past mistakes that haunt us from time to time. We’ve also all wondered whether God will forgive us for these sins. I’ve certainly been there and I’m sure you have too.
What is important to remember is that there is a key that can unlock God’s mercy and forgiveness. That key is tawbah – sincere repentance. It is an active process which requires regret on our part and sheer determination to never commit the sin again. After all, each one of us sins, but the best of us are those who repent.
An example that gives me hope is the example of the brothers of Prophet Yusuf. They betrayed their father and did what they thought was the unforgivable. They separated a small child from his father and left him for dead. The years that followed were full of remorse and regret. Would they ever be able to turn their lives around and gain closeness to God?
Let us reflect on the dream Prophet Yusuf had at the beginning of the story. He saw 11 stars as well as the sun and the moon prostrating to him. Let us not forget that those 11 stars were in fact his 11 brothers, who by the end of the story had sought forgiveness from both Yusuf and their father. Imagine, God had depicted them as bright stars even after the dark sins they had committed! They managed to turn their lives around through repentance and move on from their mistakes, and the bottom line is we can too.
The next time you feel hopeless, read and reflect on this powerful lesson from Surah Yusuf. As well as this, remember the following verse: “And it is He who accepts repentance from His servants, and pardons all misdeeds, and He knows what you do.” (42:25)
Tawakkul & Tying Your Camel
Tawakkul is a key concept in our faith, and one that is highly emphasised on in the Qur’an and Sunnah. Allah in fact announces His love for the people of tawakkul, saying: “When you are firm (in making a decision), then have tawakkul in Allah, for surely Allah loves the people of tawakkul.” (3:159)
Not only this, but Allah says He is enough for those who have tawakkul in Him: “And whoever has tawakkul in Allah, He is sufficient for them.” (65:3)
You’ve probably realised that I haven’t yet translated the word tawakkul, which was intentional. Tawakkul in Allah can loosely be translated as having full hope in Him, or placing your reliance in God. However, we can understand what tawakkul means better when we understand what Allah’s name ‘Al-Wakil’ means.
We are taught to frequently recite the following: “Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best of Guardians.” Here Allah is referred to as Al-Wakil, which can be loosely translated as ‘The Guardian’ or ‘The Disposer of Affairs.”
The term ‘wakil’ is also a legal term which refers to a power of attorney. It is someone you trust who you transfer responsibility to, knowing that they will make decisions on your behalf in your best of interests. Allah is our Wakil, meaning we transfer responsibility to Him and Him alone to take care of us and do things in the best of our interests. In other words, He is our Guardian and Protector, and always has our back.
Coming back to tawakkul, how can it be applied? You may have heard of narration in Al-Tirmidhi: “Tie your camel, then have tawakkul in Allah” — which we may not be able to fully comprehend or understand. Why? It may have something to do with the fact that we’re not too familiar with camels! So let’s use language that we can all relate to. When the Prophet ﷺ said: “Tie your camel”, we can understand this as “lock your car.” A person who has misunderstood tawakkul will, once they’ve parked their car up, leave their windows down, leave valuable belongings on display, and not lock their car. They would say that Allah will look after the car and them, and that there’s really nothing to worry about. Such individuals don’t actually have tawakkul, instead they have something called ‘tamanni’ which is having false hopes in Allah. The true meaning of tawakkul is that we do whatever we can, and then leave the rest to Allah. In other words, we put our windows up, take valuable belongings with us, then lock our cars. We then trust that Allah will take care of it for us, and even if something were to happen, we can still find solace in knowing that we did what we could, and that the rest was up to the qadr (decree) of God Almighty.
Taking from the means of this world does not negate our tawakkul, rather part of tawakkul is exerting our efforts then leaving the rest to Allah. This is found in the example of our Prophet ﷺ . When he needed money, he would go out and work for it, then leave his rizq (provision) to Allah. Before a military expedition, he would prepare his army and even wear armour, before leaving the results to Him. And likewise, when he fell ill, he turned to medication and other ailments as well as making du’a.
